Who am I?
After spending a few days thinking with my head so low in my lap, I thought
that I should spend some time thinking about who I am. Starting with me.
What I do. Where I live. How I live.
I get up late everyday.
Around 8:10am. Supposed to be at work at 9:00am. I usually shower, but on
occasions I have not bathed for a few days. I am told that I do not smell. I
hate smelling. Before I shower I usually sit on the porcelain god and get
rid of yesterday's extra, so I can wash properly in the shower.
I use saline nasal spray
usually. My sinuses are so dry that my nose bleeds almost every other day. I
have been hospitalized a few times for this. I have had surgery on my
sinuses 4 times in my life going way back to when I was born. I am afraid to
I put Vaseline in my nose before bed and before work, this keeps my nasal passages moist.
I use a shaving brush and mug, this lifts my beard. I have been doing this since I learned how to shave. Costs less, and less throw away. Soaps come in a 2"x2" box, not plastic or cans. I use the same razor for at least 3 months.
I have high blood
pressure. I take 2 medications to keep my from having a heart attack. I have
had high blood pressure since I was a small child. I was finally treated 3
years ago. I take a Valsartan and Hydrochlorothiazide; known as Diovan HCT.
I take it in 80/125mg per day. What this does is the DIOVAN component
specifically blocks the negative effects of a hormone that causes our
arteries to tighten and narrow. This action, called vasoconstriction, can
cause high blood pressure. Second, DIOVAN HCT includes hydrochlorothiazide
(another blood pressure medication, called a diuretic) that causes water to
move out of the body (through urination) and, thereby, reduces plasma
(blood) volume. This slows the strength of my heart so
it does not beat so hard.
The other medication I take is Toporol XL. This is a beta blocker. The
performance of TOPROL-XL is its ability to maintain relatively consistent
plasma concentrations over 24 hours.
Taking medications scares me. I do not like pills, nor do I like drugs. I
know I drink, but for some reason alcohol is a predictable 'high', and drugs
can have inconsistent behaviors. However, you can die from them all.
I am still afraid to die.
I'd like to think I am a purist. I like to make things myself. I make my own mouth wash. Tea Tree
oil, Peppermint Oil, Peroxide, and filtered water. Thanks to my cousin
I wear jeans almost every
day. I am in dire need of a make over. I have had the same jeans for 9
years. These are baggy on me, and do not fit correctly, but I wear them. I wear
a dress shirt and dress shoes. Every day. Sometimes I wear dress slacks, but
mostly jeans. Boring.
This is where I sleep. I
share a bed with my fiancee. We sleep well. I use a humidifier every night. I sleep on he left side of the bed. Sometimes I read before I go to bed, but lately I am so wound up, I don't. I think I have ADD. Actually I know I have ADD, but I repress that too.
I try and be neat. I am usually unorganized. Monique keeps me inline.
This is where I work. I have to wonderful cats. They keep me company. See that I am also unorganized here too.
This is my living space. Sometimes clean, but mostly unorganized.
snapped by danmerk.com on February 11, 2004